pain

I don't know how much longer I can take this anymore. I'm so sick of people being so mean to me all the time. People don't realize how much words can hurt someone either joking or not. Everyone seems to be the same. Family will tell you in your face that you're a worthless stupid shit. Friends replacing you. Prove to you that you're just someone who's not even worth the time. And to that stupid person who thinks I'm a cheap piece of shit who can put his hands underneath your pajamas whenever you're sleeping. Yes, now you know what I've been going trough. I tried to open my problems to my friends, including the one I said there that I won't repeat and guess what? She just laughed at me. I know you will say, true friends will laugh at you but NO. Do you think I need a laugh when I told her that? Wtf. And they said that I'm not saying my problems to them or even what's happening to me. What should I say to them when I said ALL? I opened my problems but they just like "yeah whatever" and now they're like "you don't trust us anymore" ha ha ha. Fuck u. Now don't tell me this is just depression because you're not in my shoes. I don't want to tell my other problems because for sure, you will just judge me as another famewhore. Fuck society. There's so much pain. So much. You don't know how much I hate life right now.